Once I got off the phone, however, it was a different story. I had guests staying with me at the time who could tell that I was on a tough phone call and once they asked the key question, "Are you OK?" the uncontrollable sobbing began.
As my way of sorting through my thoughts, I rewatched the Firefly series thinking of you the whole time. Your namesake is an empathetic genius. My favorite scene in the whole series is when River forgets who and what she is and joins in a folk dance and loses herself in the happiness of dancing with strangers.
I've watched my niece bully you because that's what 3-year-olds do, but you always return with a smile.
Regardless of whether you remember me between visits, you always greet me with the warmest hugs. I treasure those. Thank you.
No need to emulate your namesake if she doesn't fit you, but she was a pretty cool chica if you're someday needing a role model:
My heart aches some for your mom who is no longer with us, but mostly for you. I hope you're able to dance amidst the pain. Be well little one. I can't wait to see who you are going to become.